Claire Maddrell shares her testimony of how the Lord is moving mountains for her family.
“My mum is a beautiful woman with a heart of gold. She will do anything for you, she will show love to everything on this earth. I can talk to her about anything and she would listen to every word. But she's been through many incredible struggles in her life and she couldn't believe there would ever be a God that would allow suffering.
Haven't we all had that question?
Why does God allow struggles and suffering?
In February, I confessed I couldn't put God first because my mum came before everything. Little did I know days later, on my mum's birthday I would be led to put God first, with my heart surrendered to him.
My mum's cancer returned and was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, metastasized into her spine. She was given two years to live.
My mum was in the UK and I was here, wailing down the phone like I have never in my life. I put the phone down, completely in isolation. My hands and knees stuck to the floor, I couldn't move, tears feeling like hot lava carving down my face, falling into a puddle of pure sorrow, feeling every single muscle in my chest being pulled in every direction of my thoughts.
Screaming that I'm going to lose my mum, she won't see me get married, she won't teach me how to be the level of a mother that she is, she won't be able to celebrate Christmas with the family, she won't make her famous roast dinner, I won't hear her beautiful voice sing and her laughter that warms my heart... and I started to think, what is my life without my mum...
Before I could think another thought, God spoke to me in clear words for the first time in my life... His voice came out of nowhere, and it certainly wasn't my thoughts, it was the ever merciful God telling me the words, "She's going to be just fine.”
My tears started to dry, I found my strength to stand, I brushed myself down and the burdens were lifted... just like that. In that moment everything changed for me. My perspective changed, my faith strengthened. I became confident in God and how He will work through our struggles.
My mum, however, lost hope, she questioned her purpose, her life. She didn't want to be on this earth.
But God won't give you more than you can bear.
Whenever she would have her low moments I would remind her what God told me, I'm sure she thought I was crazy... My whole family did... but they didn't hear what God told me.
For the past few Fridays during worship, I felt like I was being nudged by God, like He was telling me, "If you believe in me with all of your heart, prove it. Show me so I can take you to the next level..." and I know what He was trying to get me to do. He wanted me to bow down on my knees and worship Him. But I thought, “In front of all of these people? No way!”
But He nudged me again... just an inner feeling of being nudged to act... I couldn't do it... last Friday when the nudge came again it was deeper in my heart... but I still felt embarrassed... He said, ”If you believe in me with all of your heart, prove it. Show me so I can take you to the next level.” Then I thought, "What if I miss my miracle?" The song was about to finish, and the worshipping was coming to an end, I felt the Holy Spirit everywhere around the church, "No I'm not going to miss my miracle! I am not going to be the reason why God cant use me!” I knelt down during worship and thanked Him for all of the difficulties because it brought me closer to Him, I praised Him, I prayed specifically and with all faith in my heart, I asked Him to cure my mum.
Hours later, the doctor told my mum the treatment has worked. What was a dark shadow on her spine now has turned white. We don't know if she's cured yet, but I have faith she will be!
Then, the first thing my mum did, without hesitation, was visit the Faith Center in the Hospital and thanked God.
Also, little did I know my mum has started to pray to God, the Sunday before her results day, she prayed for the village Church to be open, a very small Church the size of the worship space in the Cinema. My mum came with my stepfather who doesn't believe and her two Christian friends. The Priest came at the exact moment my mum arrived to open the Church... the Priest prayed for my mum and thanked those around her for their support. There wasn't a dry eye in that moment, sincerely touched by the grace of God in prayer.
When I first joined Cornerstone I had faith the size of a mustard seed, today I have an abundance of faith I cannot measure.
And this is all because of God's grace, worship, online sermons, Cornerstone and my Open Lounge who I call family, who prayed for us every week, who was there for me when I had no one to turn to. Thank you all so much from the bottom of my heart.
If your next miracle depended on your next shout of praise or your next bow, how would you react?
Don't ever doubt what God has put in your heart! Don't ever doubt what God can do. Through your struggles, He will show you a way. The devil might try to take your light away because it’s the first thing the God made! But don't listen!”
Exodus 15:25-26 (shortened)
'It was there at Marah that the Lord set before them the following decree as a standard to test their faithfulness to Him. He said, "If you will listen carefully to the voice of the Lord your God and do what is right in His decrees, then I will not make you suffer - for I am the Lord who heals you."
'Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.'
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